Get Up and Jump

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-12-03T21:16:00

2007-12-04T02:17:41Z

Just when I feel like I'm regaining control, I feel it all slipping away again...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-12-02T01:21:00

2007-12-02T06:22:52Z

Lewis Black = Best Comedian Ever.

"Jesus Christ is everywhere in Italy. He's like the Coca-Cola of Italy."

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-11-26T20:10:00

2007-11-27T01:19:58Z

I hate having this "double life". Not in the sense of being two different people, but in the sense of my emotions.
When I'm at home or around my family I get this feeling of being uncomfortable and awkwardness, yet when I'm with my friends I feel so welcome and can just relax and be myself.

I don't even go home to see my family anymore.
The only reason I come home is to either deal with legal matters or to see my friends.
I wish I could tell my family how I feel but I just can't.

p.s. Joe Burak, you are amazing. I really appreciate your help over break, it really means a lot to me.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-10-07T20:12:00

2007-10-08T00:13:01Z

And bad things just keep on coming...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-10-06T20:34:00

2007-10-07T00:35:12Z

I love the feeling of an uncontrollable downward spiral...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-09-28T18:46:00

2007-09-28T22:48:04Z

I feel so hopelessly alone right now...
Each day seems like it's becoming harder and harder to get through.
I don't know how much more of this I can take.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-09-12T13:29:00

2007-09-12T17:30:38Z

How bad is it when you have to subpoena your own family for their bank account records?

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-09-10T20:20:00

2007-09-11T00:26:15Z

So long Grimshaw family. I hope you spend the rest of your sick lives regretting what you did. The game you have been playing is quickly coming to an end. You will never know how more you lost besides money and material possessions.

You will never:
    -Be at my wedding
    -See your grandchildren/nephews again
    -Meet my children
    -See me at any family associations what so ever
    -Be at my college graduation
    -Talk to me again

The only time from now one that I will even acknowledge your existence is when I take back what is rightfully mine.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-08-25T23:00:00

2007-08-26T03:00:30Z

I don't know how much longer I can control myself for...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-08-24T19:38:00

2007-08-24T23:40:24Z

I find myself asking the same question over and over again.."Am I doing the right thing?"

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-08-13T17:37:00

2007-08-13T21:37:18Z

It's been the craziest month of my life

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-07-10T16:58:00

2007-07-10T20:59:09Z

I've reached my breaking point

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-03-26T00:17:00

2007-03-26T04:23:12Z

So I plan on getting another tattoo in the very near future, and I was wondering what the general opinion is on this one (it is my family crest). It would go on my other shoulder blade and be about the same size as my current one

On another note, winning $103.50 on a 25 cent slot machine at Casino Windsor was pretty amazing.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-03-13T01:42:00

2007-03-13T05:44:42Z

ST. PATTY'S DAY ALL DAY DRINK-A-THON!!! 4 MORE DAYS!!!!!

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-28T02:31:00

2007-02-28T07:44:26Z

For all of those that know my current situation, I am apologizing in advance for anytime I get all sad/angry/upset/whatever else. Just know that I don't mean to be hurtful or anything, but days will come around where I won't want to be around anyone and will be in a bad mood.

It will be greatly appreciated if everyone just tries to help keep my spirits up. Even the small things will help.

Also, I have realized that I will not be around a lot over the summer. When I am around hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-22T01:32:00

2007-02-22T06:34:00Z

Going on 3 weeks without any good news...

http://pics.obra.se/1170191653865.jpg <---- and on a different note, I don't even know what to say about that. All I know is that I should buy a house next to this person.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-19T01:37:00

2007-02-19T06:59:44Z

No one should have to deal with this. It's to much for anybody, and unless you've been there before you have really have no idea what it's all about.

I see people living in their little fantasy worlds where nothing is wrong and i pity them. Watching people complain about stupid insignificant stuff makes me think of how much they'll have to grow up.

Maybe it's just the situation I've been in for the past 2 weeks. But I know that I'm an adult now and that in the near future I may have to make decisions that not only effect me directly and in the short run, but ones that will effect everyone and over perhaps a life time. And I know that most people my age are ready to make those decisions. Prepare for the worst, but hope for the best.

Also continuing on this rant I've realized how I've come up with a new look on life. Each day I plan on growing and learning from my mistakes of the previous day. Essentially trying to become a better person everyday.

"My what a good day for a walk outside,
I'd like to say we did it for the better of."

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-14T15:08:00

2007-02-14T20:09:17Z

the hits just keep on coming...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-12T01:55:00

2007-02-12T06:55:53Z

because 11 is louder than 10

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-02-05T20:53:00

2007-02-06T01:55:06Z

Say it now because you never know...never know

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-01-25T01:44:00

2007-01-25T06:54:52Z

Bear paws and rascal power
Watching us in your garage
Big girl you ate the neighbor
The nova is over
Wake up and play
Balleradio
Make room for Clara's bare feet
The love of a Martian

Tick tock and waiting for the meteor
This clock is opening another door

Lots of love just keep it comin'
Making something out of nothin'
These are the best that I
I don't know how to say
Losin' what I love today
These are the best that I
Lots of love just keep it comin'
Making something out of nothin'
These are the best that I
I don't know what to say
Look at what I lost today
These are the things that I

Blood flowers in the kitchen
Signing off and winding down
The Martian ends her mission
The nova is over
She caught the ball
By the mission bell
Chase lizards bark at donkeys
The love of a Martian

Let's bow our heads
And let the trumpets blow
Our girl is gone
God bless her little soul

She's got sword in case tho this is not her lord in case the one who can't afford to face her image is restored to grace. Disappeared. No trace. Musky tears. Suitcase. The down turn brave little burncub bearcareless turnip snare rampages pitch color pages....down and out but not in Vegas. Disembarks and disengages. No loft. Sweet pink canary cages plummet pop dewskin fortitude for the sniffing black noses that snort and allude to dangling trinkets that mimic the dirt cough go drink its. It's for you. Blue battered naval town slip kisses delivered by duck muscles and bottlenosed grifters arrive in time to catch the late show. It's a beehive barrel race. A shehive stare and chase wasted feature who tried and failed to reach her. Embossed beneath a box in the closet that's lost. The kind that you find when you mind your own mysteries. Shiv sister to the quickness before it blisters into the newmorning milk blanket. Your ilk is funny to the turnstyle touch bunny who's bouquet set a course for bloom without decay. Get you broom and sweep the echoes of yesternights fallen freckles....away...

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-01-20T05:04:00

2007-01-20T10:05:16Z

so this whole insomnia thing....is kicking me in the face.

i hate it. i want to be able to sleep at a decent hour, and not wake up at 3pm. i can hardly make it to my classes!

any ideas?

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-01-18T00:58:00

2007-01-18T06:03:46Z

So, I honestly think I have a case of insomnia. And it sucks. No matter how hard I try, I can't fall asleep till 5-6am. Which makes for great times while sitting in class at 8 in the morning learning about Africa. Oh well, not much I can do about. Hopefully I can get back to a normal sleeping pattern soon. But if not, I'm over it.

nakedintherain5 @ 2007-01-15T03:01:00

2007-01-15T08:04:32Z

I just deleted my Myspace, and I feel so much better! Almost like a plague of darkness has been lifted from my shoulders!

nakedintherain5 @ 2006-12-12T13:39:00

2006-12-12T13:39:20Z

WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right, I done with school for about a month!!!!!11

Party from now until January 8th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1